worldliness + fire = purity

There's a desperation that can come on you that shouldn't be taken lightly. It's a desperation for........'less'. In Paul's second letter to the Corinthians he writes, "having nothing, yet possessing all things" (2Cor 6:10 nasb). That's a dangerous thing to desire. It screams of freedom though. Freedom from things that people are killing each other for. Materialism is not as blatant as it appears to be. Even the 3rd World is steeped in over their heads with the need for things which distract them from true freedom. Humanity craves more 'stuff'. The whole reason God gave us a covenant which is based on freedom is so that we would be free. Yet we have exalted that freedom to a status of Master, and it has ensnared us with greed and pride. What an awful miscarriage of justice. We've used God's love for us against Him.

We cry to God for "More" while ignoring His cry of, "I have already answered that prayer." What if we were satisfied with Him, and Him alone? What if God never ever did anything for you from this day on; would you still serve Him? Isn't what He already did for you enough? If He never blessed you with enough money to enjoy your luxuries again, isn't what He already done for you enough to give everything you own? What if the Body was filled with people who never asked God for anything, but were content only to serve Him out of the desperate love which He has for us? What would this look like? I think I know, but it's an answer that would leave 90% of christendom very unsettled.

I desire to be satisfied with serving Christ, period. I do not want to work for Christ, I want to serve Him. "A person who works is paid wages, but they are not regarded as a gift; they are something that has been earned. But those who depend on faith, not on deeds, and who believe in the God who declares the guilty to be innocent, it is this faith that God takes into account in order to put them right with himself" (Rom 4:4-5 gnb).

Although we are already dead (Galatians 2:20), we still die daily (1Corinthians 15:31). I pray that the Lord would kill us again, this time slowly and painfully, so that we would not forget. So that we would identify with the love Jesus had for us when He endured the cross for us. Today, I am desperate. Yet not to the degree which is desperate for His lost bride. My desperation needs to increase till I cry as He does. Draw us in closer Lord. In Your fire lies purity. And in Your presence lies Your fire, which burns off the worldliness that feeds our complacence. Burn it off Lord, please, millions are waiting ...................

wasup?!

The experience I've had in Africa thus far has been largely experiential. I can't really remember a time in my Christian life where the Bible has seemeed so silent, and where God has seemed so contemplative, choosing rather to lean back on His throne and observe me rather than blatantly reveal Himself. The experience is not the easiest, but it is challenging.

I just finished reading Romans 5:3-5; We also boast of our troubles, because we know that trouble produces endurance, endurance brings God's approval, and His approval creates hope. This hope does not disappoint us, for God has poured out His love into our hearts by means of the Holy Spirit, who is God's gift to us. (GNB)

The word translated 'troubles' here is the Greek word thlipsis which can also be accurately translated as 'pressure'. When God is not speaking to us as loudly and clearly as we would like, there seems to be a certain pressure to make sure we're really in His will and doing exactly what He wants us to be doing. Yet the promises that this pressure will yield a harvest of endurance --> approval --> hope. And the hope all comes back to the promise of the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. It all comes back to intimacy, and connecting to the thing that we already have.

A friend posed a question to one of the staff here in Pemba recently: "If you didn't know what you were supposed to do next and you asked God and He said, 'I don't care. What do you want to do?' What would you do?" It's a valid question. So many times we wait on God, while He's waiting on us.

In my time here in Pemba it feels like instead of God telling me what to do, He's walking beside me and I'm just following Him. No words are necessary, just relying on Him to guide. Trusting in the Holy Spirit and the ultimate promise of God that was fulfilled on Pentecost.

I said earlier that this was largely experiential. I mean that I've been finding out lots about myself and who God has created me to be. It has been an awakening of sorts. One that is crucial in the development of future opportunities. New vision, dreams, game plans, etc are arising inside me. How do I specifically and individually advance the Kingdom in the most effective and efficient way, without falling victim to the "needs" of the ministry. No one should ever minister out of "need", you must always minister out of "love" and "desire". Theirin is your joy, your steadfastness in hard times, your unending perseverance. Whoever said, "Find a need, and then meet it" probably got burnt out pretty quick if that "need" wasn't something they were totally passionate about. There will always be need, no amount of working and striving will eliminate it. We need to follow the Lamb wherever He leads us, wherever that may be. That is what I'm learning in Africa right now. Just to be. Not to stress, but just to follow. As a leaf being carried downstream, so am I.

photos for you

So I had a bit of time to kill today. I'm in town waiting for Precision Air to change my flight back to Tanzania so I can get to Russia. So I came to the internet cafe and am able to upload photos for you. So click ---> HERE <--- to view photos of my time at Holy Given 5 in Pemba. It may be forever before I get ALL the photos on here, but some are here anyway. You can also check out the 'Holy Given 5' link in my sidebar under photogarphy.

Church Planting is cool

Thats right, it IS cool. Just think. Somewhere in the northern Mozambican bush 3 hours outside of Pemba there is a place where people can access spiritual help whereas they had not the opportunity before. That is a piece of the heart of missions; placing a pastor in a church to raise up Spirit filled believers who will in turn do the same in other places that have not a witness of Christ. To have the privledge to take part in this is just awesome, it's humbling that God would allow me to have a hand in the revival He has brought to Mozambique. He trains us so we can train others. On and on it goes till either the whole world believes, or Jesus descends from the heavens.......

Lots is happening in Mozambique. Villages are being transformed by the Gospel. We rejoice with the good, we persevere through the bad. We do not lose heart, cause Jesus has already purchased the victory. We press forward under assurance of His great and mighty promises. We are not shaken, but we shake nations. Is their any other life that satisfies? I highly doubt it. Ministry can be hard, but it's addicting. The Gospel is too good to hide from people. You do not light a lamp and then put it under a basket, you put it on a lampstand, and it gives light to all around (Matthew 5:15). You do not take what Jesus has given you and horde it to yourself, you openly display (and give) it, and the world is amazed at what He's done for you, and what He's willing to do for them. The Gospel is not exclusive. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control are all described as 'fruit' (Galatians 5:22-23). Pick the fruit from the Tree and give it to those who are hungry, for those who are longing for love, joy, peace. patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. Give to all what we already have been given. For the joy set before us, we lay our lives down for those whom Jesus still calls out for.

i want cheescake!!!

I'm still in Pemba but it appears I won't be heading to Khartoum, Sudan to work at an Iris base there. The story goes that Iris is shutting down the base there till they get proper local leadership in place. This puts a bit of direction change in my future, but the lord has provided an amazing alternative as only He can. It now appears I will be heading to Armavir, Russia in about a month to help with the Holy Given: Russia school. It is an amazing opportunity to minister the Gospel in another place that is in desperate need of the love of God. As of right now, HG Russia has no international support; so we don't know where sleeping accomodations, or food, or anything will come from for our students. It has the potential to be an amazing experience of trusting God and seeing Him move in ways I have never experienced before. So I will likely head to Russia shortly after the missions school graduation here in Pemba (Aug 8) and may spend the rest of 2007 there, we'll see. We will be involved with some church planting in that area as well so there will be opportunity to stay on afterwards and do some discipling, etc. I want to add that I'm more excited and expectant about Russia than I've been about anything in quite awhile. So if everyone could pray that I will find a cheap, safe flight to either Moscow, or Armavir, it would be appreciated!!

Here, things are well though. The rice and beans are starting to taste a little bland and the culture is starting to wear on a lot of the students. But lives are being transformed and the Kingdom is advancing in a mighty wave across northern Mozambique. It is a great priviledge to have a hand in this great move of God. I can't really say I'm homesick, but I do miss a lot of my friends back in Canada; I hope you're all expriencing the fullness God wants you to.