weekend family visit

Mom and Mack were visiting from PEI the last couple of days. Too bad I don't have my laptop yet cause I got some sweet pictures from Niagra Falls from friday night; twas pretty sweet. But we spent much time just hanging out and cruisin around St Catharines. It was good to have some of the family up for a visit.

Not much has been happening the last week. School is school, and all that. I'm still looking for work, and doing lots of studying, etc. Same old, same old. I'm startin to get to know a few of the students better, and am forging some relationships that will likely last a while, God willing.

After church today, 8 of us went to the Mandarin restaurant for an all-u-can-eat Chinese buffet, with every other thing you could think of, to eat. We were under the impression that it was gonna be $10 each, but on sunday's it's $18.50!!! Are u jokin?!! Good thing one of the other students paid for mine, cause I'm just about tapped. Jobs are good. Anyways...............later.

Having it all, but wanting more!?

In my last post, I related the story of a guest speaker coming to CBC and totally firing me up. I became hungry, hungry, hungry, for God in a way that I didn't know had died off a bit. It was a day of intense Holy Spirit Presence. Anyway, that prompted a response by "anonymous" (by the way "anonymous", I'm fairly confident I know who you are) requesting an explanation of how someone could be full of God, yet want more!? It's a valid question, I guess, for anyone who doesn't know the answer. A fairly foolish one though, for anyone reading this who already knows the answer.

The main gist of it all can be summed up as "More of You and less of me". We are never to behold more of God in us than we already possess. He lives inside us and we can drink from that river at all times. Yet there are times when we don't see all that He has provided for us. We believe He took our sickness, yet sometimes we are sick. We believe that through His poverty we became rich, yet sometimes we are without a penny. We believe that we have been blessed with every spiritual blessing in Christ, but often we live so far below that. Jesus has provided EVERYTHING for us, yet none of us live to even a thousandeth of what He purchased for us. I don't deny the finished work of Christ, but I'm unwilling to live the normal 'Christian' life I see the Church trudging through. It makes me sick. Salvation is enough, but Jesus wants us to live wih more, with all that He died to give us. That included experience with Him, intimate time in His manifest Presence. Why not?

Whether or not His Presence gets stronger at times, or we just are more aware of His Presence in us, it makes no difference. The presence is stronger at some times than others, bottom line. Being hungry for 'more' of God means I want to be so much more aware, so much closer to Him, and farther from me. "More of Him" means to see more of what He purchased for me manifest in My life.

I know "anonymous" probably has a hundred little arguments floating around, but I care little about them. In fact, I'm done. I'm through with this subject right now. The feelings are too inward to be accurately described anyway. My attempts at it would only prove to be vain. In closing........ Salvation is enough, but it's not all Jesus paid the price for. If others don't want the rest, then I'll take it

feed me

Since Wynne Goss taught us, I have gotten very hungry for a slamming in the Holy Spirit. I realize (again and again) that what I recieved from God is but the tip of the iceberg, and I can't settle for it. It's not enough. Jesus died so that we could experience so much more. We never even experience 1/1000th of what He purchased for us.

I was in prayer a couple of days ago when I disinctly heard the Spirit say, "Don't settle!! Don't settle...... for what I've already done.
It's all you need, but it'not all I want to give you."

That is crazy. In the natural, when you are hungry, there is a feeling of emptiness inside, a kind of raw, gnawing pain, that needs to be remedied before any kind of satisfaction can be realized.
So it is when you are hungry for more of God; there is an emptiness inside you that can only be filled by an encounter with Him, and Him alone. Needless to say, I've been spending a bit more time in prayer; seeking God's direction in a number of areas.

He is faithful, and eager to meet our need.........

5 yrs!!!

5 yrs ago on this day, I became sober. I was saved from a whole lot of things I was held in bondage by. I realized mercy and I realized grace; I realized love, unconditional and abundant. An old man died, and a new man was born...........and here I am

another week gone by.....

Yes indeed, another week HAS gone by. A lot of the past week was me brooding over Heidi's message last friday, and thoughts of Iris Ministries, and the foreign field in general. I'd leave school tomorrow and go back, if that was an option; but it's not. So I decided to call up a dear friendie who is in Mozambique working with Iris, and that did NOT quench the desire to go back at all!! On the contrary........etc etc. 7 more months will slip quickly by, then I can put all my efforts into returning to Mozambique! Things are already in the workings........

CBC is going well. Today we had a guest speaker (Wynne Goss) all day. If you don't know who he is, find out! It was an awesome day of teaching and the Holy Spirit showed up in a big way. And most of the students have cruised to their hometowns for Thanksgiving, so the remaining few are staying here debating what to do. Tomorrow I volunteer at a 'leadership breakfast' at NCC. Should be fun. Then I think I will work most of the rest of the day. Money is still fairly scarce, but God is good. "Lack' is simply NOT part of my life!!

So yeah, thats about all thats goin on with me. Hope you're all doing as well as I am!

Oh yeah, about that Poll to the right: If 2+2=5, what does 4+4=? Well, since I made up the question, it logically would make sense that I make the answer as well, right? So, the answer is 10. Congrats to all who got it right. The new poll asks if you think I will recieve a job at one of the places I have applied to. I applied to 8 places, so the odds are good, if your a betting man/woman.